I agree with the other posters, do not beat yourself up. You have to know in
your heart that you did all you could. The people that join this and other kitty
health groups are folks who go above and beyond what the average pet parent does
when faced with an ailing cat.

Sometimes I think we actually go beyond what is right for our pets.

I am speaking only about myself, I judge no one but  myself.

When our diabetic kitty Lawrence died unexpectedly  two years ago (he was on
insulin and doing well) I was so heart broken that I failed to realize just how
sick our other sweet boy Hardy was. He had been ailing for a while (kidneys) and
I honestly expected him to pass on first. But when Lawrence died I couldnt bare
the thought of losing Hardy as well and so I refused to let him go. He was so
ill and miserable yet he was still my boy, I loved him so much. Three weeks
later I lost him anyways.

And for those 3 weeks he suffered - I did not do what was right for him. I live
with this everyday and 2 years passing have not erased the memory of my dear boy
so ill that he was unable to move or eat or drink.  I waited too long to take
him to the vet to be PTS, I didnt want him to be PTS. I thought at the time that
letting him go would hurt too much but I was thinking only of my pain. I look at
his photo everyday and I wish I hadnt been so damn stupid. I should have thought
of him.

 When the time comes - and it always does - I know I have to let our adopted
heart kitty Happy move on to a life without pain and try to take comfort in the
fact that we will all see each other again someday. I can then tell my big
beautiful Hardy boy that I learned from him a very painful lesson about life and
how sorry I am that he suffered for that.

So sorry to ramble but I am still torn up, I suspect that I always will be.






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